Lovesick - Kim Walker

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lovesick
by kim walker

love is serenading at my window
my faint heart cannot resist
i feel butterflies inside me
flying free just like the wind

your love drives me wild
makes me laugh just like a child
your love drives me wild
makes me laugh just like a child

my heart is feeling so alive
and all the stars are in my eyes
my breath is taken away
when i look at your sweet face

there's no sleep but lacks of dreaming
busy mind thinks only of you
feeling hungry but not eating
what i crave is love from you

your love drives me wild
makes me laugh just like a child
your love drives me wild
makes me laugh just like a child

my heart is feeling so alive
and all the stars are in my eyes
my breath is taken away
when i look at your sweet face

to spend my life with you
i'd give anything, i'd give everything for you (2x)

my heart is feeling so alive
and all the stars are in my eyes
my breath is taken away
when i look at your sweet face

i only have eyes for you
i'll give my heart to you

Bondage Breaker

i was listening to this song (yes another song...) whistle in your will by jason upton.

but i felt like calling this song, "bondage breaker." i think, most non-Christians worry that when they meet God, they will have to try so hard to please Him when the truth is, God did everything already in order for them/us to become pleasing to Him. we come to God not on our own merits and righteousness remember? but the enemy tried to twist our minds into believing that Jesus was lying when He said, 'my yoke is easy and my burden is light' and so some of us still strive, when all we have to do is surrender and let God do the 'bondage breaking.'

sometimes i wanna scream at people (OR MYSELF) and say, "just give up the STRIVING! it's not you who's gonna do it! until you LET GO and LET GOD, nothing is ever going to work. my goodness, do you actually think you can FREE yourself from the bondage of sin? from the spirit of lust, or insecurity, or addiction? it's never gonna work. because you are still trying to prove to God that you can rid yourself of these things. you are still trying to prove to people that you can CHANGE.

but you can't. at least not on your own. so QUIT the striving. lay down the pride. If we can do it on our own, God would know. Then He would not have sent JESUS because we can manage. but truth is we can't. Thus, Jesus came. So He can take on our BURDENS and make it light.

Yes, LIGHT. If you think your burden is too heavy, then it's not from God. Again, QUIT the STRIVING and SURRENDER... Believe me, when we are weak, then He shows Himself STRONG.

so here's the song I was telling you about. if you're in sin or bondage, i pray FREEDOM for you in Jesus name:



Whistle in Your Will

I followed hard after sin
Thinking of somehow it would fulfill me
Realizing in the end
It was only out to kill me

Only your will fills
Only your will fills
Only your will fills
The void inside me

(you said…)
How many times lord, have i hurt you?
Following hard after men
Thinking that somehow they could fill that void of rejection in me
How many times have i followed follow hard after men, hard after men?
Thinking that somehow they could fill that void of rejection

Once again i followed hard after sin
Thinking somehow it would fulfill me
Realizing in the end
It was only out to kill me

Cause only your will fills
Only your will fills
Only your will fills the void inside of me

There is a whistle in your will, a whistle in your will, a whistle in your will
Oh god, your yoke is easy
Your burden is so light
(repeat verse)

There is a whistle in your will, a whistle in your will, a whistle in your will
Oh god, your yoke is easy
Your burden is so light

It’s the bondage breaker
It’s the bondage breaker
The will of the lord
The will of the lord
The will of the lord

the balance of choice

"Tempting" is a word we are all familiar with. Those on strict diets responds to chocolates or ice cream with the word, 'tempting.' Those who need to study for a crucial exam find it tempting to give in to sleepiness or laziness when they should be studying. We all get tempted and perhaps when i say "tempting," everyone will understand that it does not merely refer to an urge to do something that we should not be doing. One is tempted when one is allowed to experience a battle --- being asked to choose between something that is easy and something that is difficult --- the easy thing being the one that we really should not choose.

for me, there is rarely a day without temptation. just a couple of minutes ago, i felt tempted to pursue something i really should NOT. i am not talking about a wicked act. rather, i am referring to something as simple as doing something that is neutral but doing it with wrong motive and intentions. i could easily say "it's alright riz! it's not like it's gonna lead somewhere evil. of course you are entitled to enjoy, be happy, and do what you wish as long as it WILL NOT HURT anyone." but I KNOW that i know that all that is a lie. all of our actions have corresponding CONSEQUENCES. my choice now, no matter how small, will certainly lead into the fruit of whatver spirit it was done in. and NO, it is a lie that it will not hurt anyone! for sin or compromise, for that matter, will surely hurt anyone who engages in it. it is not enough to NOT do blatant sins! it is a must to guard our actions and be discerning of our motives --- when we make friends, is it because we want to give or because we want to acquire something for ourselves? when we do good, is it because we love or because we feel obliged to have the appearance of "love"? how about the little things? is there anything that we are doing for the wrong reasons? is there something we are tempted to do - for the wrong reasons - but we keep on justifying it's 'okayness' because outwardly it doesn't really look wrong, and we really want to get our flesh tickled with whatever it is we are desiring?

the temptation i faced today was nothing new. it had been courting me for quite some time now...

but today, i realize that everyday, as temptation offers me different colored flowers... my future too, hangs on the balance every day. every day i will be asked for a choice. i AM being ASKED to CHOOSE. every day, my life asks me to answer a question: today, is it going to still be YES LORD WHOLEheartedly? or SOMETHING ELSE? something else, meaning anything that is not wholeheartedly YES to Jesus. and if i may repeat, ANYTHING that is not WHOLEheartedly yes to Jesus. yes, everyday, i am being tested to decide who is Lord over my life. and yes, everyday, the destiny of a life, and the destiny of LIVES hangs on the balance of CHOICE.

so is it going to be YES Jesus or YES to a little bit of flesh-tickling temptation-satisfying invitation?

you don't need me to explain which one is worth it and which one will cost you more that you thought it will.

Word

Your silence has a sound
louder than the voices underneath my chest
clearer than self-inflicted word-weapons
mightier than disapproval
stronger than rejection
more powerful than emptiness
it saves, it resurrects
even a buried soul