Little Superhero Girl

(found a song that says exactly how I feel. oh yeah, including the part about Singapore! lolz)

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole *wide* world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to *turn*
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade
Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore
And imagine how i'll make the world a better place

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognize
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na...

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
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Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
Sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark but don't bite

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognize
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na...

Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world

today (God's version)

(errr... the first one titled 'today' was my constipated version. this one, God sang with me this morning. hehehe... it makes a lot of sense to me because i know what we're talking about but perhaps, it will make sense to you too. i hope! lolz.)

this is the day that i have made

open your eyes and see it

this is the day that i have made

open your heart and receive it

this is the day that i have made

open your arms and embrace it

this is the day that i have chosen

simplicity ends all the doubting

today, He comes

Heaven's Rescue

Psalm 57:2-3

I cry out to God Most High, to God, who fulfills his purpose for me.

He sends from heaven and saves me, rebuking those who hotly pursue me; God sends his love and his faithfulness.

I cry out to God Most High, to God, who fulfills his purpose for me.

I have a purpose and a call. YES, we (God and I) both know that. But days come when every assignment purposed to stop that purpose come running after me. Those days, I learn to CRY. Oh yes, we must cry out TO the God who fulfills his purpose for us. Or we end up crying out to idols which cannot rescue us. Even idols of laziness and lack or worship! We cry out to him and say, "God, the God who FULFILLS YOUR PURPOSE FOR ME," rescue me so that your words may be established in my life.

He sends from heaven and saves me, rebuking those who hotly pursue me; God sends his love and his faithfulness.

This part really blew my mind. I never thought of it this way... HE SENDS FROM HEAVEN. He sends from where? Where God? Heaven?

This was the picture I saw. Three wounded men were being attacked by an army of hundreds or even more - men with machine guns and fighter tanks. Who could survive from such an enemy?

They are hiding in the forrest among the bushes. Their enemy is closing in on them. They have tried to contact the nearby camp for reinforcement. They were waiting. It was a vast army that is pursuing them... The nearby camp does not have enough reinforcement to match this army.

Thus, it was the military's MAIN HEADQUARTERS that sent them help. They have the best fighter planes, the best trained men, the best choppers, the best men were put in charge of the rescue. This is HEAVEN's RESCUE. It is not a mediocre assault. It is God's military strategy from heaven.

They hear the fighter planes coming. At impulse they suddenly jerk their heads upward. (Where does my help come from?) They heard the chopper coming and machine guns cleared the ground from them to be able to come out and be rescued.

I heard the Holy Spirit saying, heaven's rescue, heaven's rescue, heaven's rescue! This is God rescuing us in his LOVE and FAITHFULNESS. Simply because we cried out. Why would God send his LOVE and FAITHFULNESS together with his rescue operation? It simply had to be cheesy right? Here we are, waiting for a the chopper and fighter planes to come, but God does not only send the fighters, he says, I'm sending you my a love song. In the midst of the WARFARE, we hear a LOVE SONG echo, being sung by our very own, Commander in Chief and Mighty Man of War, our Daddy God.

october 25

i just have to get this out before i sleep. it's 1 am and my heart is still jumping up and down (while beng and weena are out doing cartwheels somewhere).

as i was walking on one of araneta center's sidewalks this morning, i tried to hold back smiles bubbling from inside me. i wanted to laugh at myself but i had to hold on to some decency. (mashadong maraming tao sa kalsada.)

after sunday service, i greeted mitch, some other friends like doc lissa... i started jumping up and down as if i won the lottery. i stopped myself. it didn't look good on me and my heeled sandals. minutes later, i was on the phone with ryzl and i was jumping again. what can i say, i couldn't help it.

just yesterday morning, i sensed fear building in my heart. but before the day had ended, fear had melted into rivers of joy. i realized that the very source of my fear should be the source of my joy. it was God answering prayers down to specific details.

someone had a prophetic dream about me some 2 years ago. and just a few months ago, someone had another dream which seemed to be the continuation of the first dream. it was a desired continuation because the 1st dream had ended rather unpleasantly. the second dream promised hope. it spoke of a moment when the unpleasant ending of the first dream changes and shifts. the shift opens the door to a promise that i have long received from God, and i have prayed and wrestled for for so long.

the 2nd dream had this simple detail i could not forget... that when it happened, i was 100% aware that someone had dreamed of this before... but i didn't understand what what happening until after God swept away my fears. then he started speaking...

don't you see? i am in control. didn't i give that dream with those exact details and didn't i allow that moment for you to see that the God who gave the dream is able to (literally) bring it to pass right here where tangible people walk, laugh and cry?

then i realized, if God had allowed that dream to come true (and i mean dream or panaginip and not pangarap...) then the other dreams will also come to pass. and those 'other' dreams are just darn good! i couldn't even begin to imagine how it will happen. but i know it will. not because i have big faith. my goodness, i don't. but it will happen because God was the one who had given it, and he's the one who has purposed in his love for me to transpose it where ears and hands actually hear and feel.

i was browsing through old poems a while ago and i realized that God has honored my declarations...

yes, God is real. and so are his every word and promise. :)


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Miracle

i know waiting will not last forever
i know faith is a word that eventually substantiates
for those who know how to ask and receive
i know time was not meant to delay or prolong suffering
i know longing is meant to be met by an embrace

i know tears are wiped away in the end
i know promises will be fulfilled if they were given in love
i know hearts soften when watered with mercy tears
i see rain clouds smelling the earth's hunger for water

miracles are not far but are only waiting for the cue of the great Director
a miracle is real even before it happens
and when my heart is filled with faith to the brim,
you will be greater than everything that i know.
when my hand begins to feel,
then i will laugh and cry.

but now, fill me with more of your truth
let me taste the showers of hope purified
faith watering my insufficiency
turning belief into answers
for the God i spoke with, i know, is real

today

today is for those who have waited.

leave tomorrow for those on a journey.

do you see?

faith has laughed its way to miracles

doubters can learn to un-doubt

and shake off the dust of unbelief

eyes that see can turn into eyes that perceive

and hearts that had trusted

had trusted right

today, i can laugh at myself for the days i wept.

today, i weep again, not in sorrow but in joy.

today, the clouds almost kissed my valley

from where before i closed my eyes

they were but high up crowning mountain peaks.

today, tomorrow reached to me its hand

would not let go, would not let me run

i thought i had fought hard

but i have the sense that i am about to realize

that it was tomorrow which fought hard for me

it was grace that gipped and pulled me

to where i should be

we are here now

expectation

so it happened that when God witnessed this FAITH unshaken, he knew that it was as pure as that of a child's. have you ever seen a child believe? have you ever watched a toddler wait for a promise? i would go to great lengths just to reward a child's faith. but there is no length or width for God. now do you wonder how quickly he would come if he saw you beaming at the sight of him, trying to figure out where he hid the "pasalubong"? he'd probably whip up something, even if there was none.

expectation "f-ruited" in trust is a dangerous thing.

sing for Me :)

okay funny funny Daddy God... I sang to him this morning for like minutes and minutes and i was giving my all but i'm just not breaking through. then I realized He wanted to be the one to sing, so I let him. haha! oh i wish we could all hear Him sing over us! but i lost most of the song already. harhar. but i tried to get him to sing again and I was able to get parts of the message on here... in essence, this is what my God said. this goes for all of us:

are those the eyes

of my little girl

tightly shut

trying to find me in her mind

are those the lips

of my precious child

singing me love songs

are those her hands

strumming the guitar

are those melodies for me

are those melodies for her Daddy

wouldn't she know it

that i am watching

that i am tasting

every note of her voice

ever word from her lips

every tear that falls from her eyes

i'm catching

wouldn't she know it

that i am gazing

la la la la la la

sing for me baby

sing for me baby

sing for me

sing for me sing

sing for me

sing for me sing for me sing for me

sing for me baby...

la la la la la la la la la

wouldn't you know it

i am feeling as you sway your head

i am taking in

every turn of your eyes

every shift in your voice

every swing of your hand

every note in that melody

wouldn't you know it...

and more more more. He said so much more! But i guess i'll just write it down when i remember....hihihi

great day!

new glasses, eye bags, and cramming

i swear, i should have gotten my new pair of glasses months ago! so after torturing my eyes for a couple of months, finally had them made...!

oh... they're not as cute as my first pair, but they're more comfortable. the first pair is rimless, very fragile and thin, and has smaller lenses... keeps sliding down my nose... has lower grade on the left eye and accdg. to the optical shop, was already full of scratches, making it stressful for my eyes to use. uh-oh that's why... :(

now let's talk about eye bags. harhar. they're still there! and they're not getting cuter due to constant lack of sleep. they don't exactly match my glasses, yet i'm glad i can see better now (because of the glasses and not the eye bags).

and then cramming. this is an activity i have been trying to avoid. but it has relentlessly followed me like a lovesick lover. sometimes i'd be staring into the computer screen with eyes already painful from stress. (if only i could read with my eyes closed?) i know this is not exactly good regimen for my eye bags but work is work and it needs to be done! then again, i'm glad my eyeglasses are adjusted now. although a while ago, i was a bit concerned because the screen seemed blurry even though i had my glasses on... perhaps, it's because eye glasses aren't there to take away stress, they're just there to make your vision clearer.

now let's add a bonus paragraph. you can't see my brain in that picture - i'm glad. there comes hours in our lives when we don't know how to begin what we need to do and so we decide to take photos using using photo booth (if you're a mac user) hoping the flash will get your brain juices flowing... but i don't think it worked for me because after those shots, i fell asleep.

i guess that's all for now... good morning everyone. have a precious day. Jesus is crazy about you. :)

tomorrow

i know you do not understand poetry and yet i keep writing poems addressed to you. it's funny how i keep doing the same thing over and over even though it does not make any sense. this is how i sigh and breathe and live. this is how i speak, how i form words, and how i express. you are facing the other way. our gazes do not meet. our words would not find each other. our paths refuse to cross. our minds are far off. even when our eyes meet, our lives are distant, too distant to remember anything worth holding on to.

but this is now. this is now and i know what tomorrow brings.

i know you are not far off. i know that distance is too finite to be given much contemplation. i know something from someone who knows everything, always.

if God had remained silent, i should long be gone. you would have lost me. but here i am again writing prose and poetry. and where there used to be tears, life is birthing smiles and laughter. i don't know how it happened but yes our lives are distant, too distant to even find solace in encounter... but here i am again, i am writing. believing that by some miracle you'd ever understand. on.